I am a Cost Auditor!!!

today's quote: You CAN have it all. You just CAN'T have it ALL AT ONCE.
---- Ate Oprah Winfrey

it's been a week ( seems years ) since I started training in cost audit. quite a feat! i have been relieving Benny in the said post previously but only on specific capacity. i have never seriously considered moving in to that post kasi parang masyadong complicated. dagdag pa dyan yung fact na weakness ko yung cost accounting nung college years ko. dito ko nakuha ang isa sa pinakamababa kong grades!

but then Jong told me na i should conquer my weakness. she has given me more than enough encouragement to decide positively about the offer. so, i took it. i remember the time when i also felt a bit off against the A/R Supervisor position given to me when Qasim left the company. i recall telling Jong how slow and incompetent Qasim was compared to me ( yup! im a born showoff and okrayera! if you have been reading my blog, you should know that by now!) when he was my supervisor. but when he decided to leave and the position was offered, i felt like i was a FRAUD - feeling like i know nothing more than i really do. i panicked! i did not know how to decide on that. i thought i could just leave the company as well and find another place comforting.

but then, Jong ( in between sighs and lots of convincing...) assured me that i could do a better job than my previous supervisor. i never believed her then until i started believing that 'yeah! what do i really have to lose if i give it a shot?'. so, i stopped comparing myself to Qasim. 2 months later, iam fully adjusted ( and terribly EXHAUSTED! as in exhausted to the laylay ang dila at eyebags ko level! ). 4 months further, i had the A/R section hit the lowest number of days in years. trust me, that is more than an achievement.

enough bragging. i do work hard to deserve whatever i have anyway. i have given up and stayed away from lots of things para sa kung anumang meron ako ngayon. i denied millions of invitation of overnight gimmicks, parties at kung ano ano pang kasiyahan sa mundo para lang hindi mawala ang focus ko sa work. am i workaholic? (rhetorical question to ineng. hindi kailangang sagutin! ) well, my friends are asking me na bakit daw parang wala na akong life. tatanong ko naman, " what am i missing ba?". and they would tell me na ganito ganyan, achuchuchu achochorvah...walang katapusang pagsasaya! and para matodo ang depression ko, babanat sila na "wala kang lovelife!". highlight kaya natin? WALA KANG LOVELIFE!!! aray! potah! ayun! sapok sa fez!

kasi nga, kung nde ako uuwi ng sobrang late na ( at pagdating ko ng haus eh tulog na pati yung batang nagpupuyat sa 'min ), eh darating ako ng maaga pero nakatutok naman ako sa telebisyon hanggang antukin. kulang na lang eh maggantsilyo ako with matching cats sa tabi ko while rocking the chair para complete na ang "old maid chuvah". so, am i workaholic? well...you tell me!

eh bakit nga ba ganon? talaga bang antisocial ako?

ayon kay Jong, ako na yata ang isa sa pinakakilalang personalidad sa mundo ( echoz! ). kasi, parang natural na sa kin ang maging palabati at chikadora. kaya nga pag nasa hotel kami, hindi lilipas ang araw na walang babati sa kin. ganun ako ka-sociable. hindi nga ako mahirap pakisamahan eh.

ok, i admit, sobrang workaholic ako to the highest level. Mitz told me na wala na akong time to do "romantic stuffs". haaaaayyy, i can not blame anybody, not even myself kung bakit ganun. depression moment minsan kasi they're telling me na hanggang ganda na lang ako. wala daw pakinabang ang pagiging diyosa ko. sinasamba pero hindi minamahal...wehanonamanngayon??? sampalin ko kaya sila ng pera?! chos!